With that, Xie Ruhe hung up without waiting for an answer. He breathed impatiently, and his reason came back slightly. He reluctantly thought that Fang Wencheng's words were mostly correct.

Everything has to be done step by step.

Although he is eager to possess her, to give her in this way, or to give himself enough sense of security, to leave a mark on her, to know her better, and to ascend to heaven.

But it's just his idea.

Xie Ruhe even thought that if shunian didn't want to go out, he just wanted to stay in the house and resist the outside world. She can only see him, eyes only him, will not think of other people.

Take him as a pillar, and you can't live without him.

That's good, too.

They stay in this house forever.

Only each other.

Like in the cold and wet soil, where there is no sunshine, there are two intertwined vines, which depend on each other and cannot be separated.

But as long as Xie Ruhe saw shunian, saw something about her, or as long as he thought of her.

Such thoughts will disappear in an instant.

From the first day I met her to this moment today. In such a long time, all the time, every minute, every second, in Xie Ruhe's eyes, reading is shining.

People who should live in the light.

See the world, should also be bright, those dark should be far away from her.

Xie Ruhe sat on the sofa and thought for a while. Then he sat up straight and touched the touch pad to light up the computer. He licked his lips and hesitated to type eight words on the keyboard.

The serial homicide case in Shiyan town.

Looking at the details listed clearly one by one on the website, Xie Ruhe's face became paler and paler. He was biting his teeth. His eyes were dark and his whole body was tight. He could clearly see the green tendons in his forehead.

For a long time, he covered his laptop and closed his eyes heavily.

Xie Ruhe never paid attention to this event before.

Because if he pays attention, it is inevitable that he will see all kinds of information about Ji Xiangning's victims from the Internet again.

When Zeng Yuanxue was arrested, he did not return home. The court informed the family members that Ji Xinghuai handled all the procedures and procedures.

Two months before the first trial, Xie Ruhe returned to China.

He hesitated for a long time, felt that he had to accompany his grandfather, and also wanted to see the murderer punished by law. But on the way home, he was in a car accident and was in a coma for two months. When he woke up, the court had sentenced Zeng Yuanxue to death.

Zeng Yuanxue served the sentence in court and did not appeal.

He didn't pay attention to this event any more, and entered a long day of recuperation and rehabilitation.

At that time, Xie Ruhe had thought about whether to go to study or not. As soon as she landed on this land, the thought of being in the same city with her would come up uncontrollably.

Can think of her boyfriend, and he is now this half dead look.

He was so self abased and embarrassed that he didn't even have the courage to hide in the dark to see her.

He always thought that.

Not in their own eyes, not in their own side, reading will certainly live better, will live in another piece of sunshine.

Live a beautiful life.

After reading those materials, Xie Ruhe was depressed and suddenly stood up and went to the direction of the room. He stood at the door, his eyes dark and gloomy, raised his hand and knocked on the door: "read?"

As soon as the voice fell, suddenly something fell to the ground.

Clang, accompanied by many small objects falling clatter.

Then, the sound of reading began to ring, with anxiety and uneasiness: "wait a minute..."

Because of her movement, Xie Ruhe stopped breathing and subconsciously pushed the door open.

Shunian was wearing short sleeves of cotton and hemp, his face was white, and he knelt down beside the bed. On the ground, there are several medicine boxes, and a bottle of medicine bottles falling on the ground, scattered with dozens of white medicine.

At this time, she is flurried to pick up the medicine one by one.

Noticing the movement of the door, shunian looked up. When she saw Xie Ruhe's face, she felt guilty to the extreme. Then she suddenly dropped her head and stopped picking up things.

Quietly, as if accepting lingchi.

Xie Ruhe stood in the same place for a few seconds, then quickly went over and carried the book back to the bed. Her body was stiff, and she seemed to be sweating and silent.

He took a look at her, then squatted down and calmly picked up things on the ground.

"What's this?"

Shunian nervously pulled the thread on his clothes: "medicine..."

Xie Ruhe said, "fluoxetine hydrochloride tablets, indications, depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder and bulimia nervosa. Sertraline hydrochloride tablets, for the treatment of depression... "

He didn't read any more and asked softly, "does this medicine have any side effects?"Shunian didn't say a word. His lips were pursed into a line.

Xie Ruhe was silent for a while, and his voice became hoarse and low: "if you think you need to take medicine in your present state, let's go to ask the doctor first, and then decide whether it's good after listening to the opinions?"

“……” Shunian shook his head and said seriously, "I don't want to go. It's useless."

Xie Ruhe patiently reasoned with her: "if you are sick, you need to see a doctor, and then you will get better."

"It won't be good." When shunian looked at him, he might feel aggrieved and his eyes immediately turned red. "I used to be obedient and go to see a doctor, but I haven't been well for more than a year..."

"Maybe it's not that fast." Xie Ruhe said in a low voice, "but if you don't see a doctor, it will become serious."

"If it can't be cured, it costs money." Shunian couldn't listen to him. He sobbed and said, "I've been sick for nearly two years. I know how to take medicine. I know how to take it. I won't eat it indiscriminately..."

Xie Ruhe wiped her tears: "it will be cured."

She shook her head stubbornly.

"I used to think my legs wouldn't get better." Xie Ruhe said, "it's better now."

Hearing the speech, shunian raised his eyes, and a tear fell out of his eyes. Her voice with a nasal, soft waxy: "I'm not as strong as you."

"You are better than me," he said in a dumb voice

Shunian still shook his head: "I don't want to go."

Xie Ruhe licked his lips: "why don't you want to go?"

"See a psychologist..." Shunian hung his head and seemed embarrassed. "It costs a lot of money. I don't have any money, and I don't want to ask my mother. I told her before that I'm getting better. "

Hearing this, Xie Ruhe took out his mobile phone from his pocket and put it in front of her.

"I have money."

Shunian pushed back his mobile phone and rubbed his eyes: "I can't spend your money."

He is a Leng, ask again: "why."

"It's your money." The tone of the book is blunt, "I can't use it."

Xie Ruhe suddenly remembered something. He got up and sat down beside her. He frowned and his voice lowered: "you don't want to see a doctor, you can tell me, but why do you take the medicine secretly?"

It sounds a little fierce.

Shunian took a subconscious look at him.

There was no expression on Xie Ruhe's face. His eyes were dark and deep. He was staring at her straight. With a little oppression, he couldn't see the mood at the moment.

Reading slowly ah voice, tears did not fall again, staring at him dully.

She looks like this, Xie Ruhe also lost his temper, just sighed: "you have something to tell me."

Shunian hung his head and played with his fingers. He said, "I'm afraid you won't let me eat if you know."

Xie Ruhe nodded: "there is more."

"I'm afraid it will happen." Maybe it's hard to say, the voice of reading is getting lower and lower, almost can't hear, "it will be very uncomfortable, then I feel anxious and want to take medicine to restrain it. And I don't want you to see me like that. "

Xie Ruhe patiently said: "what kind of."

Hearing this, shunian pursed his lips, tears fell down again, without saying a word.

Remembering that she had said something like this many times before, Xie Ruhe touched her head and asked, "Why are you so afraid of me seeing it?"

"I was sick at first, when it was serious." Shunian raised his hand to cover his eyes. His words were full of choking, "my mother is with me I'm not the only one in pain. She's in pain, too. "

“……”

"I wanted to commit suicide once, and she saw me. Later, she didn't dare to leave me alone and quit my job. During that time, she lost a lot of weight and couldn't sleep every day. Because I'm afraid I'll do something Later, I heard from my stepfather that my mother also had to take medicine to fall asleep... "

Hearing the word "suicide", Xie Ruhe's eyes stopped.

"But she's my mother, so she won't ignore me." Shunian sobbed, "I'm afraid I'll make you look like that, and then you can't stand it, and then..."

Xie Ruhe's Adam's apple slides: "then what."

Shunian couldn't speak any more, and he shed tears on his own.

Xie Ruhe understood what she meant.

Probably, I couldn't stand it, and then I broke up.

That's about it.

He stares at her, then goes over and hugs her, taps her on the back placidly, and says seriously, "I won't."

"You will," she murmured

"I will not."

"You will."

Xie Ruhe felt that their conversation was like a child. He felt a little funny, lifted her face up and rubbed her tears with his finger pulp: "why do I do that?"

Shunian didn't know where her stubbornness came from. She just felt that no one could stand her except her parents.

She thought with red eyes, and reluctantly gave a reason: "I dreamed about it."But did not think that the answer would be this, Xie Ruhe's expression was obviously a Leng, suddenly laughed. He gave her a kiss in the corner of the eye and said solemnly, "I'll apologize for the one in my dream."

"You didn't say that." Shunian raised his hand and touched the place where he had been kissed. He was still in a bad mood. "You don't have to apologize, and there's nothing wrong with that."

Smell speech, Xie Ruhe side head thought: "that you with me say an apology."

Shunian's eyes widened a little, but he didn't respond: "what?"

"You're making rumors in your dreams."

"Ah?"

"Defame my image." Xie Ruhe picked the next eyebrow, peach blossom eyes deep and bright, deliberately lengthen the ending, said, "let my girlfriend misunderstood me."