Wen Yan, Shu Nian looked at the rehabilitation doctor and asked hesitantly, "do you usually encourage him like this?"

Rehabilitation doctor picked pick eyebrow, to Xie Ruhe ambiguous smile up: "yes."

“……” Xie Ruhe's eyelids moved, and she pursed her lips, saying nothing.

After thinking about it, shunian suddenly pointed to the position between the parallel bars: "can I stand here?"

"Certainly," said the rehabilitation physician

Then, shunian went up and stopped about three steps away from Xie Ruhe. Her expression is very serious, as if the matter as a job to carry out.

"Just three steps, one, two, three..." Shunian nodded three times with his fingers, then looked at Xie Ruhe, "you come here, I will encourage you." The tone behind

as like as two peas, and the first time she met her, she was just the same as trying to seduce him by using sugar to get her to go home every day.

Xie Ruhe was a little stunned and nodded subconsciously.

Although after repeated training, he has been able to stand for about a minute without supporting anything. But without relying on things, Xie Ruhe still can't do it at this stage.

His hands supported the parallel bars beside him. When he was ready, his upper and lower limbs worked hard at the same time.

I feel numbness and pain in my thigh.

Xie Ruhe's sweat fell down, his masseter muscles tightened, his upper body tightened, and he seemed to exert all his strength. His muscles were straight and taut, and his tendons were prominent.

He breathed slowly and let his mind go.

Because of his state, shunian became nervous and watched his movements.

Xie Ruhe's movement is slow, even has the feeling that the picture has stopped. After a while, he raised his left foot slightly and moved forward with difficulty.

For ordinary people, a simple action is extremely difficult for him.

The nose of reading is inexplicably sour.

Xie Ruhe calms down his breathing. After adjustment, he begins to lift his right foot.

Step two.

The pace is very small.

The distance of the three steps just calculated in the book is about 1.5 meters. But now Xie Ruhe took two steps, but it was less than half a meter. The distance between the two seems to have not shortened at all.

After the second step, Xie Ruhe's face turned white, as if he was suffering from some great pain.

He closed his eyes and said hoarsely, "sorry, it hurts so much..."

He can't get to the third step.

It's only one step away from the goal, but it's a distance that he can't even walk.

At the same time, the rehabilitation doctor moved the chair over and said, "take a rest. Don't practice yet."

The next moment, shunian suddenly took a big step forward, like finishing the unfinished step for him. She got close to him, stood on tiptoe, gently hugged him, and patted him on the back with the palm of her hand, which was soothing.

Soft little body surrounded him in an instant, but also feel her breath in front of his chest. Xie Ruhe was wet all over, and sweat fell down his chin.

But shunian didn't seem to care.

Did not expect that she would have such an action, Xie Ruhe body instantly stiff, do not know how to react.

Soon, shunian took back his hand, looked up at him and said, "you've done a good job."

“……”

"You did a good job." Shunian repeated, like saying something extremely important, "Xie Ruhe, I think you will get better."

Xie Ruhe's voice is low: "really."

"Well." Shunian patted him on the shoulder again. His face was like a little old man. "Everything will be fine."

Xie Ruhe looked at her with a smile and then gave a hum.

"Good."

There will be times like this.

No matter how embarrassed, helpless, and tired, the overwhelming negative emotions erode in a moment, they can't match someone's words.

It was like a flash of light.

He just needs to believe it.

She said he would be better, then he would be better.

Shunian's birthday happened to be the day before Valentine's day.

February 13th.

After high school, because of her character, Chen Hanzheng gave her the nickname of "nerd". But reading is not just a student who will die, so the nickname is "nerd".

Later, after learning about shunian's birthday, he called her "Er Bi".

Some people think it's fun, and they shout along.

Shunian has a good temper. Although he doesn't like them shouting like this, he doesn't care much. She has her own way of doing things, only when others call her like this, as if she didn't hear at all.

Once during recess, shunian sat down at Xie Ruhe's seat and told him a question on the test paper.

There happened to be a boy who came back from the office to read books, but he didn't call her name well: "Er Bi, the teacher told you to go to the office."Hearing this, the nib of the book read a meal, eyes did not lift, continue to give Xie Ruhe topic.

The boy's patience is not good, shouting: "do you hear me? Second, if you hear it, you should say it, right

But shunian didn't respond, but Xie Ruhe raised his head: "who are you calling?"

Boy pick eyebrow, point to book with chin to read: "she ah."

Xie Ruhe looks gloomy: "can't you shout a name?"

"What's your name?" The boy grinned, "isn't this a good classmate? It's a good relationship to call a nickname. "

Shunian raised his head and said to Xie Ruhe, "ignore him."

Xie Ruhe didn't seem to hear it. He looked at the boy, then suddenly laughed and leaned back in the chair.

"You look like scum to me." Xie Ruhe's peach blossom eyes curled up, as if angry, said out of the sharp and merciless, "I give you a nickname called scum?"

Later, shunian secretly asked Xie Ruhe.

Do you think she looks like a "two force" to say that to that boy. After all, they only nicknamed her because of her birthday number.

At that time, Xie Ruhe was silent for a while and didn't pay any attention to her.

Since becoming an adult, shunian has no great expectation of birthday. The coming of this day will only tell her that she is one year older and one year less in her short life.

Originally do not feel lonely day, seems to have become desolate.

Shunian had forgotten his birthday.

But when I was sleeping, I heard the movement of the door. When I came out to have a look, I found that Deng Qingyu had come and was busy living in the kitchen. There was a cake box on the table, and she remembered.

This is the annual day.

Shunian opened the cake box and ate a strawberry secretly.

Deng Qingyu just came out with a bowl of hot noodles, put it in front of her, and then touched her head: "eat the bowl of noodles first, you'll be one year older."

"Well." Shunian smiles at her.

Deng Qingyu sat opposite her.

Shunian lowered his head and took a sip of soup. Suddenly, he thought of something: "Mom, I checked the card of ICBC yesterday and found that you are still transferring money to me."

“……” Deng Qingyu's expression pauses, "yes, you need to see a psychologist, and there are expenses every month. Besides, your job doesn't mean you don't make much money?"

"I have money to spend." "You don't want to give me any more money. I'll transfer it back to you later," he said

Deng Qingyu shook his head: "wait until your situation stabilizes, OK?"

Shunian insisted: "I'm fine now. Wang Linxi is not going to high school soon. You all have to spend money."

Wang Linxi is Wang Hao's son, Deng Qingyu's stepson and shunian's stepbrother.

Deng Qingyu's expression did not change: "it's OK, you don't have to worry about these."

"You don't want to give me money." Shunian bit his face and said vaguely, "I have money myself."

What else did Deng Qingyu want to say? Shunian opened her mouth again. She didn't know how to say it. Her speaking speed was a little slow: "before I I went to see you once. I heard you and Uncle Wang quarreling. "

“……”

"He's a good man." Shunian looks serious. "I hope you can do well."

“……” Deng Qingyu's expression is stupefied, "what did you hear?"

- "what's wrong? I haven't been cured for a year! The girl I saw you last time was quite normal! What's the difference between this money and burning it! How many times have I reminded you? Have you mentioned it to shunian? "

"I really don't want to argue with you. You just want to tell you that you can't just focus on your daughter. If I have money, do I have to worry about it with you? "

Shunian did not speak any more and ate noodles in silence.

Looking at her, Deng Qingyu's eyes became red.

Before moving to Ruchuan City, Deng Qingyu sold the house in Shiyan town. She used the money, plus most of the savings left by Shu Gaolin, to buy a house for Shu Nian in Ruchuan city.

At that time, she had been married to Wang Hao for less than a year.

Shunian was completely unfamiliar with the father and son, and became very alert. He did not want to live with them.

The house itself is not big. It has only one room and one living room.

Deng Qingyu moved over to live with shunian and took care of her every day. Wang Hao's understanding of shunian's illness is not deep enough to understate it. But at that time, she got along with shunian day and night. She knew how serious shunian was when it was serious.

She did not dare to go out. She could not eat or sleep every day. She would cry every day. She would only repeat three words: "help me". In a short time suddenly thin down, like skin and bone.

Hear a little bit of movement will shake the whole body, the spirit is extremely sensitive. I always say that I can hear the sound of water drops, and my head aches. Serious up, she will be breathing difficulties, sweating, paralyzed in bed can not move.

It's like dying.Shunian will only stay in his own small room and live like a dream. Deng Qingyu always coaxed him out of the room, eating, going to the toilet and taking a bath.

There was something wrong with her spirit, like she had no hope to survive.

Deng Qingyu checked online.

I know that shunian got PTSD, that is, post-traumatic stress disorder, and also caused depression, anxiety and other mental disorders. During that time, Deng Qingyu was physically and mentally exhausted, and was in a state of mental tension every day, as if she was about to break in the next second.

Deng Qingyu knew that there was something wrong with her idea. Even if she knew that shunian's situation was serious, she didn't want to take her to see a psychologist at all. She felt that when people she knew knew knew it, it would not be nice to say it.

She is waiting for the book to get better.

This idea finally broke down one day.

Deng Qingyu will always remember the scene she saw when she came back from shopping that day - Shu Nian was holding a knife and wanted to scratch her wrist.

Deng Qingyu immediately pats off the knife in her hand, breaks down in a flash, and wails with her in her arms.

The book reads the facial expression to be at a loss, looking at her tears, don't know why, also slowly red eye socket.

The next day.

Shunian took the initiative to leave the small room for the first time. She stood barefoot in the same place, looking at Deng Qingyu's stupefied expression, silently shedding tears. Seems to wake up, but still look extremely timid.

She wanted to save herself.

She didn't want to live that kind of life. Every day she felt that she didn't want to live, but she really wanted to live.

God gave her a chance to live, not to live like this.

For a long time, shunian sobbed and cried like a child, pleading for what he wanted.

"Mom I want to see a psychologist