3 years later.

It has been five years now since Yusuf has left me but the memories of us together, I still held it to my heart.

It hurt so much that sometimes, I thought of killing myself but I've to be strong for my son- abdullahi.

I love him so much; he and Abdulrahman have became my source of happiness and my joy.

Since yusuf's death, I was in control of his company and Zayn's company. I merged both together and changed the name.

I'm the CEO of the company and my company is the number one and the main source of income to the country. The company has been has been expanded and blossom. It has many quarters in different part of the word.

I was not that weak girl again. I became fear that both males and females were afraid to face without nearly shitting themselves.

I dressed in my long A-shape skirt,pink shirt with my pink cape. I strode out of the house to my personal car and drove off.

I put on my strong facade outside like I'm not dying inside.

Abdulrahman was always by side,always there for me. I'd also started my therapy session because of my suicidal attempts but I didn't think it was working because I still cried myself to bed and nightmares.

"Good afternoon ma'am, abdullahi is with his dad" the caretaker said, I only nodded and went to the terrace. I didn't talk or smile much except with my babies- Abdulrahman and abdullahi.

I called out my five years old boy."Abdullahi, momma is back" I laughed. Alhamdulillah for having him,he is my morenikeji and remilekun.

"Momma, momma hide me. Dada want to catch me"'he grinned,hiding behind me.

"Where are you?" I heard Abdulrahman's voice calling from a near distance.

"Did you see that little cupcake"he asked in a singing voice.

I shook my head,"no,I've not..." I was cut off by my boy.

"Momma,you are lying but you said..."he said while pointing an accusing finger to me.

"I'm sorry bibi. Momma's sorry. Momma was hiding you away from this man" I pouted, down casting my eyed.

I laughed out loud, what I've not done for years- happy tears welled up in my eyes.

"It's okay baby,momma forgive you" I said hugging him.

"Momma here" he said pointing to his left cheek for me to peck it.

"No way boy"

"Yes way momma. Momma angry?"

"No"

"Here"

"Okay"

I knelt then peck him on his cheek and he retaliated it.

"Momma birthday today" he yelled.

"Oh thank you so much boys" I said excitedly.

"Wow!, I can't believe I'm not 27 years. I feel so old" I laughed lightly while Abdulrahman chuckled.

"S you are not getting old. You need to move on and search for another time. You are still young." He said gently staring at me in eyes intensively.

"I should search for a man?"

"Yes"

"Tell me,what man is going to marry me for who I am not what I am? Or marry a broken weak abused widow girl plus a baby?"I said in a high tone.

"You are not weak S. You are strong. Look at you,here you are with your boy happily." He said softly,rubbing my cheek.

"No one can't love me like him and I still love my husband".

"Then will you marry me?" I said softly.

"Yes, I want to but please give me time to think about it and say my last goodbye." I murmured.

"Okay,I understand. Take your time" he said and peck me on my forehead.

I needed to move on but I hoped  I am not making a mistake.