It has been a month since I've left Abdulrahman's house. I sighed and rubbed my temple, I've been feeling slight headache. Abdulrahman used to visit once a week and pleaded for me to come back but I couldn't because I wanted him to my worth.

Maryam visitors me weekdays after work. I've returned back to office after I've left it in care of my younger brother- Lut.

The person sending the letters was still mystery. I received gifts and letters almost thrice in a week.

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"Divorce you"

"No,she can't do that?" He said anxiously.

"She can't leave you, uhn?. You never make her happy except adding pain to the opened scar." Maryam yelled at him.

"She can't leave me" he laughed, looking at me skeptically waiting for me ti reply but I didn't.

"You will leave me?" He asked while I turned away from him.

He fell on his knees and crawled to me. "Sophia please don't leave me, I love you. I'm a shattered man without you." He said agonizingly.

"No" I said coldly, my voice void of emotions. He looked astounded and happy while maryam looked shocked,"im not divorcing you" I said firmly, then he stood and hugged me. "But..." I continued, "I need a space without you" I said not looking at him while his shoulder slumped.

"Sophia, please don't do this. I'm sorry, I've realised mg mistake." Wheezed. "Please if you leave me, I will go crazy and I don't want to go back there again." He bawled. "You were my drug that always keep me sane" he chocked on tears. When you left me,I was chained for months; beating till I fell unconscious and resumed when I regained consciousness "he said frantically while I shuddered in fear.

How can someone be so cruel!

"Please don't leave me, I swear to God, I've changed" he cried out.

"Even though, I still love you but you've lost some part of me and you need to win me back" I sniffed, my heart was breaking inside with the steps I was taking away from him but I need to.

"Sophia, I love you. Please forgive me" I left the house without looking back.

When I and maryam reached the car, I bursted out tears. I cried while maryam patted my back gently, telling me everything would be alright.

"Maryam, I love him but.."I hiccupped while my lips trembled,"I'm afraid of him. He's a ticking time bomb. He loves me too" I crouched down.

"Yeah" she said sentimentally.

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I was still reminiscing the incident when abdullahi came and shouted behind me.

I jolted out of the past while releasing a frightened shriek,panting heavily. I was scared, my heart was pounding like it wanted to remove from the ribcage.

"Momma,what happened?" He asked concerned.

I didn't know how this small baby know when I'm feeling good or not.

"Why?"

"Because you've been thinking too much lately. Is it because of Dada?",he furrowed his eyebrows while he continued,"he will come home soon. He loves us" he said softly.

"When did you enter?" I changed the topic.

"Now" he shrugged his shoulder, "I've been saying Teslim and no one answer me" he said disappointedly.

"Sorry"

"Mom what is today?" He asked cheerfully, beaming with happiness.

"Don't know" I said dismissively.

How would I know!,when all I've been doing was crying and thinking!

"Oops momma" he looked dejectedly.

"What?" I said confusedly

"Even stranger remember today is my birthday" his voice waivers while tears gleamed in his eyes.

"I'm sorry bibi"

"You forget my birthday" he cried while I tried to shooed him.

I shook my head vigorously 'no',"how will I forget my baby's birthday" I lied while he raised his head smiling widely.

"I was just teasing you" I tapped him on his forehead.

"Momma,let's go to the pack. We've not been there lately" he grinned

"Who is that stranger?" I raised my eyebrows inquisitively.

"Captain Z" he stuck his tongue at me.

"Captain Z?" I asked

"Yes" he nodded,"he said we should call him that" he said swirling his backpack around.

We headed out of the house going to the nearest entry to buy an ice cream. He never stop talking about captain Z. He continued that captain Z was this and that. I couldn't wait to meet that mysterious captain Z of my son. After we ordered our ice cream and went out of shop while he danced and laughed widely. I laughed too.

I held his hand tightly because we were on the roadside. When he tugged my hand for attention. I whipped my head around and face him," what is it Bibi?" I asked while he pointed to the other side of the road. I squinted my eyes because I didn't know what he was pointing to.

"Momma,see captain Z" he beamed excitedly. I squinted my eyes very well then I saw the person's back. The person's posture looked familiar. My c.h.e.s.t beat frantically while I turned to the woman I was talking- wanting to leave her.

I released abdullahi's hand while holding out my pulse to pay for balloon. I turned to hold Bibi when I noticed he was running to other side of the road. I screamed loud because incident was repeating it self. The balloon and the pulse, I was holding fell down from my hand while I stood still. My baby's body fell on the ground with a loud thud while everything seemed frozen because it happened slowly.

So much blood!!!

My eyes was deceiving me!!!

The same way his father died!!?

Everyone was running to help him,calling ambulance but here I was,still fighting with my brain to comprehend.

"No!!!" I screamed frantically, seeing my baby's blood paint the floor red.

"Abdullahi!!!!!" I released an agonizing scream.

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