░Bing Shi's thoughts░

'Other's thoughts'

〖Xuan Mu's thoughts.〗

ASMR - Autonomous sensory meridian response is a calming, pleasurable feeling often accompanied by a tingling sensation.

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Xuan Mu wanted to occupy all of her time. He started to get irritated whenever she left to help out her parents. Even in games, if she began to speak to somebody, his mood would turn black. For him, every action she took was considered cheating.

She had to have the voice chat turned on all the time. He was accompanying her silently during activities she liked, like reading or drawing; they didn't interrupt each other when she had to study.

〖Bing Shi is mine now.〗

〖Why are you taking Bing Shi away from me?〗

〖All of you should die...〗

〖Why are you talking to them?〗

〖Stop talking to them...〗

〖Are you cheating on me?〗

〖I have to stop you from cheating...〗

"Bing Shi, do you want to watch a movie?" Xuan Mu asked, sending her a link for a webpage, where she could download the movie.

"Sure," Bing Shi agreed enthusiastically and clicked on the link he sent her, "What is it called?"

That's how both of them stopped playing games for a while and switched to other types of entertainment. It was like having a long-distance date. They would start watching a movie at the same time, what more, the voice chat on their computers would be turned on too, so they could share their opinions.

They were both perfectionists and chatterboxes, so during a movie, they would always point out all the mistakes in a plot while enjoying themselves.

「During action movies:」

"What's wrong with this police couple? Did they just kiss? There is fire around them, and people are throwing bombs at them!" Bing Shi adjusted her headphones.

"Yeah, so unprofessional, they should be fired," Xuan Mu agreed while munching on something.

〖I would kiss you too.〗

〖No. 〗

〖Nobody can see your kiss...〗

"What are you eating?" asked Bing Shi when she heard the chewing ASMR.

"Gummy snakes," Xuan Mu answered.

"Why snakes? Why not bears like normal people?" Bing Shi asked with curiosity.

"I'm scared of snakes," Xuan Mu answered and put more gummy snakes into his mouth.

"So, you eat snakes because you are afraid of them?" Bing Shi raised her eyebrow.

"Yes," he answered while chewing on a gummy snake.

"What's wrong with your logic?" she scrunched her eyes, "I would never eat a gummy rat, ew."

"Learn from me," Xuan Mu bit off the snake's head, "And fight your fears."

"Haha...No."

「During romantic movies:」

"Bing Shi, this is painful to watch," Xuan Mu cringed, "Their acting is as bad as yours."

"Yeah, my brain is bleeding," Bing Shi covered her eyes, "I wanted to see a novel adaptation. What a bad idea."

"Let's watch some cartoons to clean our souls," Xuan Mu sent her a new link.

Both of them started watching cartoons.

「During historical movies:」

"How can they live without the internet?" asked Bing Shi.

"I wonder too," Xuan Mu said while munching on something again.

〖I can live without it but not without you.〗

"What are you eating this time?" Bing Shi heard him sucking on something.

"Sour candy," Xuan Mu placed it under his cheek for easier communication.

"Ewwww," Bing Shi made a sour face.

"You hate them?" Xuan Mu asked.

"I dislike all sour things," Bing Shi gulped down her saliva.

"Good to know," Xuan Mu smiled evilly.

In the far future, whenever Xuan Mu ate a sour candy, he would taunt Bing Shi by putting his sour candy into her mouth with his mouth just to see her reaction. And take his candy back right after.

「During Comedy movies:」

Xuan Mu chewed on bubble gum, "Bing Shi, what are you eating?"

"Teaching you what food you should eat during a movie," Bing Shi munched on her butter popcorn.

"But you are too loud, I can't hear their jokes," Xuan Mu continued chewing his gum silently.

"Whenever I speak to you, I want to flip a table," Bing Shi put away her popcorn.

"Noo~ I'm going to make popcorn, wait for me," Xuan Mu returned with a package of popcorn. Both of them continued watching the movie. Occasionally you would hear some crunching sounds from them. At the end of the film, both of them were laughing.

The whole time they were competing, who was the loudest!

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When they were alone, everything seemed to be okay. However, his behavior changed immediately whenever Bing Shi left him alone to do her chores like cleaning up the house, or helping out her parents with their company. He would accuse her of cheating, telling her not to socialize with other people if it weren't a necessity. Also, to always go home after school, never going out with others.

Bing Shi wasn't stupid. She knew he was too obsessed with her. She was curious about obsessive men. She couldn't understand why women wanted to run away from them. In exchange for their freedom, they would be pampered! She would gladly stay at home all day, playing games and reading novels. That's because she felt the freest in her room.

The only thing she had against obsessive men, was how disrespectful they behaved towards women, wondering if they even loved them. They abused them and acted like perverts, who only thought with their lower parts.

Xuan Mu, on the other hand, was never disrespectful towards her, he respected her every wish and never acted as a pervert.

░Xuan Mu is a nice gentleman. He is a lot smarter compared to them.░

Not going out to meet with others? Not talking to others if it's not a necessity? Everybody would run away from a person like that.

But Bing Shi's way of thinking was different, after many years of observations, she found out.

She didn't argue with him. She did as he wished, she let him turn her into his Ice Queen.

In a relationship, it's about two people making each other happy. Thanks to Xuan Mu, she felt happy.

If it could comfort Xuan Mu, she won't socialize with others. It's not like she ever cared about socializing. She didn't need lots of friends. One true friend was more than enough. She found him amusing. It was fun reading his conversation with others. But the only thing she couldn't tolerate was him, accusing her of cheating!

『Bing Shi:』I don't cheat! Stop spamming me! You are so unreasonable!

Falling on the bed, she typed on her phone in frustration.

〖Why don't you want me as much as I want you?〗

『Xuan Mu:』People are dangerous! What if they turn you into a cheater?!

Sitting before his computer, he clutched his phone with a displeased expression. Why couldn't she understand what he was going through?

〖They are going to steal you from me...〗

〖I can't let that happen...〗

〖Only I can love you...〗

〖Nobody else can...〗

『Bing Shi:』I know they are bad! I'm not that easy to sway!

She was so angry that she blocked his number on the messenger app.

░That's what you get for accusing me!░

〖Did you block me?〗

〖No! 〗

〖No...〗

〖Don't leave me, please. I'll die without you...〗

Xuan Mu panicked. He started to scratch his chest.

〖If I do nothing, Bing Shi will disappear!〗

He quickly returned to his computer and sent her a message through another program.

『Xuan Mu:』 Didn't you say communication is the key to success? So why are you running away?! Don't run away from our problems!

He quickly typed out before she could block him here too. He still didn't know her address; only she knew his.

〖Please. Don't leave me.〗

〖Don't run away from me.〗

〖Why does it hurt so much?!〗

He went crazy. She didn't contact him the whole day! His thoughts were full of Bing Shi, leaving him, and finding a replacement for him. He was hurting so much that he wanted to kill himself again.

『Xuan Mu:』 Bing Shi, please, come back. I'll die without you.

Xuan Mu knew she was in an invisible mode. But feeling ignored felt the same as if she wasn't here. He started to panic again.

〖Don't ignore me. Speak to me, please.〗

〖It was my fault, Bing Shi left because of me. She doesn't love me.〗

Finding a loophole, he started to call her via VoIP.

(VoIP like Skype, Discord, Teamspeak.)

░He is the best, isn't he? He found a solution and, at the same time, respected my wish about not calling me via phone.░

░So smart~░

Rubbing her teary eyes, Bing Shi picked up his call with a smile.

"Bing Shi, I want to kill myself for hurting you. I don't deserve you," Xuan Mu knew she felt pressured by his suicidal thoughts, taking full advantage of them, it worked out.

Bing Shi panicked, "Just stop accusing me of cheating! I hate cheating! You have no trust in me! And stop hurting yourself!" She started to cry.

〖No.〗

〖Don't cry.〗

〖Please, don't cry.〗

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I know you are not a cheater. You are a good girl," Xuan Mu pleaded.

"Why are you always accusing me of cheating?" Bing Shi resumed her cry; both of them started to solve their problems through communication.

"I always have nightmares of you leaving me because of somebody else. So I have to assure myself that you are not leaving me. It's like a spell to heal myself," Xuan Mu confessed.

〖Now, she'll think that I'm crazy.〗

"You should have said it sooner. Stupid nightmares, stop hurting my boyfriend!" said Bing Shi with a face full of worry.

"Mm, I'm sorry. Yeah, stupid nightmares!" Xuan Mu finally calmed down.

"I'm sorry for running away. Also, I'm not a good girl," Bing Shi didn't feel like a good girl.

"My Ice Queen, there's a new MMO, want to try it out?" Xuan Mu chuckled weakly.

"Yup," Bing Shi giggled while sniffing in a snot.

When Xuan Mu and Bing Shi became an online couple, Xuan Mu wanted them to look the same. So whenever they played, both of them were usually the same gender. Their clothes and hairstyle were identical. The only difference was the class, the color, and the names above their heads. The color scheme was black and white. Both of them wanted to be black.

In the end, Xuan Mu was always in all white, with the name Shiro.

And our Ice Queen Bing Shi was always in all black, with the name Kuro.

(A\N.: Shiro=White, Kuro=Black)

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After a year of dating online...

『Bing Shi:』 Let's meet up in real life.

She didn't even let Xuan Mu prepare his heart. She blurted it out of the blue again.

〖Huh?〗

〖Whaaat?!〗

The young Xuan Mu jumped out of his chair; the chair fell from his sudden movement. He closed the distance between his face and his smartphone. Making sure he was not hallucinating, he rubbed his tired eyes and rechecked her message.

His whole being became hot and nervous at the same time.

He looked at his heart area and started to rub it, trying to calm down his heart, which wanted to jump out of his chest.

〖Bing Shi, what are you doing to my heart?〗

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╔════ Author's note ═══��╗

This song Anthony Amorim - Sometimes, suits the young Xuan Mu so much.

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