A week had gone by with me and Harin avoiding each other although we live in the same apartment.

We rarely bumped into each other at the house but when we do we act like complete strangers on the street.

Part of me was hurt and sad but the other didn\'t care.

She had changed seats in the classes that we had together which le people whispering and asking  questions.

It was known by all of the school by now what had taken place at the party last week but everybody had a different version of it so it will be squashed soon as only just a rumor.

Minjae also had been avoiding me even though I tried to make amends so I had no choice but to sit alone in all of my classes.

Back then I knew that I only had one friend but it didn\'t bother me because she was all of needed.

If only I could tell my past self to make another friend I wouldn\'t be so lonely, well that is of course she didn\'t have a secret fiancé that I would somehow sleep with.

I had recharged my bus card the other day so I now commute by bus by myself everyday to and from school.

My back ache had had lessen over the past week but I still felt tension in my lower back  muscles so I didn\'t cancel my doctor\'s appointments for next week just incase I broke or fractured something.

I had tried  my best to conceal my injury for who would care anyway?

I was lonely and friendless.

It was now once again Saturday and I was at home on the couch talking to my little sister on the phone finally cracking and opening up to someone for the secret was too hard on my chest.

"Wait wait wait let me get this straight, you and her fought over some guy that she is engaged to but she has a boyfriend that is not him and you and her supposed fiancé liked each other and ended up having sex after he took you to his apartment after you beat up his booty call? Is that what you were trying to say?" Asked my sister for the 10th time of me trying to slowly explain to her.

I sighed pinching my nose bridge feeling a migraine coming on, "yes Abigail that is exactly what I was trying to say. Do you get it now?"

"Umm sure. Uh-huh. What\'s the title of this k drama and which episode is this?" She asked after a while aggravating me even more.

"Ughh," I said gripping the phone in my hand trying to control my anger, "listen to me child. This is not a game. It is my life."

She chucked over the phone obviously not believing my true life\'s story,  "Yeah sure it is. Mom told me you fell the other day. I think you need to see a doctor. "

I clutched the phone even tighter wanting to punch her in her stupid face, "listen Adriel this is serious. I had sex with my ex-best friends fiancé and now she hates me. Why don\'t you believe me?"

She sighed tisking a few times before she answered, "you beating up Harin and that girl I can believe because you have a very bad temper  but you having sex? No big sis I will have to pass on that one."

I felt offended and scoffed placing a hand on my chest," what is that supposed to mean? Aren\'t I attractive enough?"

"And here I thought you would have been offended because I said you were hot tempered." She said ignoring my question.

"Well whatever. I did have sense with him and if I were being honest I really really liked it" I said shrugging not giving a damn about dignity anymore.

She gaped at my blunt words and just sat there on the couch unbothered, "well I\'ll be damned. You really did do it huh? Wow! My big sister finally did I. It\'s still a lot to process but I am very proud of you."

I scrunched up my nose while speaking, "you are acting like I won the Nobel prize or something. This is not graduation so save the applause and congratulations. Besides, losing your virginity is not something to be proud about. What kind of example am I to you my little sister?"

Adriel busted out laughing as if what I just said was funny, "I swear I can count on you for a good laugh. Example? Girl I lost my virginity years ago. I just didn\'t tell you because we hardly talked since you left and was so busy. I was 18."

It was now my turn to gasp at her revelation, "you what? Damn. I really am a prude. I still can\'t believe that you beat me to it though. I\'m jealous."

We both laughed at my silliness and I smiled into my phone loving the sister time that we were having.

"Hey why don\'t you call me? Have you abandoned me?"

I could have felt her rolling her eyes from the other side of the hemisphere,  " I do but you were always so busy with your bestie and school that you forgot all about me."

The tone in her voice sounded hurt which caused my stomach to drop, "oh no I\'m sorry. I didn\'t know. Any time I called you you were busy so I just thought that you didn\'t have time for me. Hey listen to me, no one neither best friend or boyfriend will ever come between us okay? You and me are forever. I love you dummy."

"I love you too stupid," I could feel her smile through the phone which too caused me to smile,  "Don\'t get all soft on me dummy."

My smile faded and I rolled my eyes, "had to ruin the moment huh?"

She giggled and my smile returned.

The five year gap between us did not strain our relationship at all for at the end of the day she was my ride or die.

"Now," she said with a mischievous tone in her voice, "tell me about this hot virginity stealer guy and I want all the details from day one. Don\'t leave anything out."

I sighed as I readied myself to tell her all about my Kdrama of a life and she just sat there quietly giving a short response or asking questions during it all.