Chapter 173: Liu Jinhai's heartfelt feelings

It was killing Huian inside to know that Nana is carrying Jinhai’s child. It was the right that should have been hers. She was feeling disgusted inside thinking of that child.

But she remembered how Jinhai vehemently opposed to having a child with her when she suggested it. It was after that incident that their relationship started to go downhill.

So she realized that how can Jinhai accept Nana’s baby? He doesn’t want to become a father.

Jing’s face turned sour.

Bro was against it that time because the mother of that child had been you, stupid.

Liu Chunhua widened her eyes. She didn’t know what to say. That time it was different. But now…the woman carrying his child is the person he has fallen for.

Yes, she realized it last night. Jinhai had feelings for Nana.

Chen Liling was also thinking along the same lines.

Why won’t Jinhai accept the baby when Nana is the mother? He loves her. Naturally, he won’t give up on the child.

She sighed inside.

How she wanted Nana to be her daughter-in-law…How she had already thought a name for her grandchild…

Chen Guiren felt the sadness in her eyes. He patted her on her shoulders and smiled assuredly.

She smiled and nodded back.

—

Nana’s eyelids fluttered, and she slowly opened her eyes. Her sight was locked by a familiar pair of black orbs, unblinkingly looking back at her. She saw him firmly holding her hand, their fingers softly intertwined.

Nobody said anything for a while.

Jinhai asked first, breaking the ice, “Are you feeling better now? Any discomfort? Should I call uncle Zhou?”

Nana shook her head.

A tear trickled down from the side of her eye. She whispered, her lips trembling. “What will I do now? What will I-“

“We.” Jinhai interrupted. “It’s not ‘I.’ It’s ‘We.’ You are not alone. I won’t let you bear anything by yourself. We are, and we will always be together, facing whatever comes our way.”

Her eyes reddened.

“Liu Jinhai…”, she broke down in tears. “I’m terrified. I want to feel happy, but it is only frightening me even more. I hear voices echoing in my head that I’m not supposed to feel this joy. This right is not mine.”

“This right is only yours.” He said firmly. He helped her sit up and took her in his arms. “When I confessed to you that night, I said that you can be only mine, just as I can be only yours. I love you. You love me. Our child is proof of those feelings we have for each other. Neither our feelings are a mistake, nor is our child.”

She smiled faintly, tears still flowing.

“Do you remember that day in Liu Corps, when we were holding Peng Meixiu’s child in my arms?”

She looked at him and nodded.

He smiled. “That was the first time when a feeling arose in my heart to hold my own child. Our child.”

She gazed in his eyes, surprise evident on her face.

Jinhai cupped her cheek. “Yes. Maybe I didn’t realize, but I had started to have feelings for you. You know, when I was holding her baby, a thought came across my mind. ‘How nice it would be if it were our child…’. That was the first time in my life that I held such a strong desire for something.”

He was pouring out his heart to her. She didn’t know if it was the pregnancy or not, but watching him expressing his heartfelt feelings made her cry even harder.

“I couldn’t control that urge to wish for it. It just naturally came to me. And it felt so right at that moment. That feeling was so pure, and I didn’t feel ashamed of myself or guilty of that emotion.”

“You…” Nana was stumped for any words to say.

He wiped her tears and asked, “Tell me. Do you hate our child?”

“No!” the response was instant.

“Our baby may not have conceived in an ideal situation, but will you feel embarrassed about him or her? Will you regret giving birth?”

“Never.”

Jinhai smiled. “Then that is all I want to know.” Just one last thing was left. “Do you remember the question I asked you that night?”

There was a few moments of silence.

“Yes. You asked me if I trust you.” She said softly.

“Do you?”

This time she held his face in her hands and said, “Be it that night or today, my answer is still the same.”

He stared at her.

“Yes, I trust you.”

Jinhai leaned in and kissed her lips.

“I promise. Neither you nor our child will have to lower your head in shame. Neither you nor our child will have to bear any criticism. I promise I will not let you or our child suffer.”

All the sorrow and anguish in Nana’s heart washed away in an instant. Not only her lips, but even her eyes smiled a brilliant smile.

She had never forgotten those words he had said that night.

And today too, the words were the same, but this time…their child was also a part of his promise.

—

Everybody was anxiously waiting for Jinhai to come out.

The door slowly opened, and Jinhai came alongside Nana.

Jinhai ignored everybody’s questioning gazes and asked Zhou Bingwen, “Uncle Zhou, How is Nana’s condition now? Can I take her back home?”

He said, “Yes, she is fine. I have written down some supplements. She has to take them once a day. Also, I suggest you take her for an ultrasound tomorrow.”

Jinhai nodded.

“Child.” Zhou Bingwen looked at Nana. “If you ever feel even the slightest bit of discomfort, then call me anytime, okay? Here is my number.”

Her heartbeat quickened, coming face to face with everyone. She looked at Zhou Bingwen, faintly smiled and nodded.

Liu Hai said, “Jinhai. Come to Liu villa with Nana. We have to talk.”